I'm taking a somewhat new outlook on that statement. Normally people think of opportunities, jobs, or work ethic when they hear the phrase "don't put all of your eggs into one basket!" I'm taking it in a different context: Friends.
I drove home musicless due to a lack of radio today and was flooded with emotion. Sometimes I feel so alone, like I don't have a friend in the world. I've got friends sure, but no really good go to anytime good 'ole sleepover girlfriends. I thought to myself, 'this is what they mean with the whole egg/basket saying' You spend all of your time and love on a few really great amazing friends and when they fade away, what do you have left? No one... I am left to start my senior year with what seems like no friends. I spent my entire summer with my sisters. There is nothing wrong with that, my sisters are great, but everyone needs non-related friends in their life. It especially sucks when most friday nights you are at home, doing nothing at all. You hear of crazy fun adventures others have, including your freshman sisters who hang out with your friends more than you do. It just is a painful and lonely feeling I can't even stand. I'm sure once the business of school and applications and auditions begins I will feel less of this because I simply won't have time to. But what do I have? Work, School, Music... and thats it. Maybe I'm just being silly and I just feel like I should be super popular and have lots of friends, but I don't need to... But I shouldn't feel this lonely, there is no way that this is normal.... All my eggs are gone and I'm just left with empty baskets walking on broken egg shells.
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