I have taken a break from writing (excluding the post a few days ago), well it has been more than a break, it has been a full blown long period of neglect. The end of my high school career, including many events taking place in celebration, came and went and I hardly said a thing of it. It was a stressful month or two, resulting in bronchitis and lack of sleep. It was all well worth it in the end.
Now, my plan isn't just to update the 'ole blog, but to start it up again. It is summer time, I do not have much to do, and I want to at least be semi-productive. I also feel the need for a creative and intellectual outlet again. Something I've missed lately.
To kick off my 'new beginning' I'm just going to post random thoughts that have been on my mind, nothing I will really elaborate on, just things to jot down and maybe pull out on a rainy day. And it is sort of a jump back to the old routine, writing in list form again ;)
1. Learning about yourself can be more interesting than any subject. Not in a vain way, saying that one should believe they are more interesting than someone else, but when you learn something about yourself you are learning and realizing something that has been true all along and right in front of you. The revealing of that one thing can be mind-boggling.
2. Type A personalities, such as myself, really need to take time to learn and relax. I couldn't handle a week of nothing but going to the beach, but it would be good for me if I could.
3. Voices of reason are all around us, in other people. It is extremely hard to know which to listen to. One voice of reason people often overlook is themselves, such as the warnings they give themselves. The one voice you can always know to listen to, and therefor can be used to compare all other 'voices of reason' to is none other than God. And boy, does that make things easier when you learn to just listen.
4. When you do the right, but most difficult, thing in a situation it is so painful, we all know that. The feeling that comes after that pain is what is so rewarding. You feel empowered, relieved, stronger, wiser and that you've learned something and grown from that experience. It challenges you to keep your eyes open for the harder but better choices in all situations.
5. Before, I always thought new beginnings, changes, and being away from home was the scariest thing I could imagine, but as college draws closer and I only know 3 other people going to the same school, I could not be more excited. I am actually thrilled by the fact that I am going to be finding a new group of friends and starting over. I have some of the greatest friends in the entire world now, and they have really made me who I am today but I am ready for the next chapter. This feeling of readiness has made the drifting of some friendships and complete breaking of others alright for me. I am at peace with what has happened and is happening because I am actually okay with the transition.
6. As you change, you surprise yourself. In continuation of thought 5, I never ever thought that I would be good with change. I thought that would be a problem I would always have, but I have really surprised myself with how content I am in this change. I am relieved that I feel so prepared, I did not want to struggle with all the change going on around me. I hope that is a sign of growing up and not just lack of caring.
I will hopefully write more, and hopefully gain some more habitual readers. I'd really appreciate feedback. If you don't want to comment you can always email me too. seshively@insight.rr.com
Perhaps one of my most favorite things about you is that you are a DEEP thinker. The average person goes through life simply reacting to life as it comes along. They don't plan, they don't analyze, and they definitely don't dream the way that I see you doing.
ReplyDeleteA few thoughts for what they're worth.... also in a list :-P
1. God IS the most important voice you can choose to listen to and ultimately obey. (Did I mention that this is my FAVORITE thing about you?) But the secondary voices that you choose to have speak into your life need to be from people who are ALSO listening to God. Definitely have non-believers in your life and influence them whenever possible, but if your "inner circle" doesn't share your same life source, you are playing with fire, my friend.
2. Change can be good, but oh-so-hard. When planning a change or executing a change or even evaluating a change, I try to look at 3 things (a list within a list!). Truth (capital T), facts, and feelings. By Truth, I mean what is the most God-honoring direction to go. Facts are all the circumstances in a situation and the history behind it. Feelings (your gut)...well we know what those are. The key is remembering that these three things can't be weighted equally. If you let facts, or worse yet feelings, guide you rather than God....the results aren't often good.
3. In response to your #6, you have definitely grown up. "Lack of care" I definitely don't see.
Some changes are necessary, some are wise, and sometimes we choose the wrong changes. Fortunately there is grace. Or I should say Grace. Some doors should be locked behind us after we walk through them and sometimes we need to go back through the door. Just pray about the wisdom to know the difference!
Responses shouldn't be as long as blogs.....but moms will always be moms.
Love you Sarah E!
Sarah, you blow me away. Your blogs make me laugh, smile, think, and reflect. I reflect on where you are in life and how much further ahead than I was at your age but you also make me look at my life now. I grow and learn from you and for that I thank you.
ReplyDeleteThank you Mommy and Chris. I really appreciate that you read :) You both are truly amazing people in my life that have taught me so that I can write things like this :)
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