Stuck in between

I feel as though I am stuck in an "in between" sort of place in many areas of my life, I am no longer one thing, but not to the next place yet. It is sort of a frustrating place to be, because I am confused as to what I should be doing.

Living at school during the year and home during the summer has put me in a place where I feel like I am old enough that I know friends my age living on their own, but I do not feel ready to not be living at home. This makes finding the right level of independence frustrating, I do not know what things I should still come to my family for, and what things I should handle on my own. This also makes it hard to tell if I am failing or succeeding at being an independent individual. Are there things I should be doing on my own, without help?

Summer itself is an in-between time and because I am living at home for just 3 short months of summer, I find a conflict of what I should be doing. I feel like summer is a time to be spontaneous and have some fun. Being away from home, summer is a time to see people I do not get to throughout the year. I get to live at home and spend time with my family, but go out and do things with my friends. I have found myself in a conflict of how do I catch up with everyone, and spend time with all of the people I love fairly? I want to be spontaneous and just make random plans with people and do fun things, but then I am never home, and never see my family. Unfortunately my family is a group of busy people so we are hardly all at home at once, so not going out tends to result in being home alone. It seems an unsolvable problem, someone is going to get left out. It almost feels like I am stretching myself too thin in trying to please everyone. I want to keep commitments and plans I make with someone, but still do what I need to at home, and spend time with people I want to, and who want to spend time with me, and still trying to figure out how to treat different people who I have different relationships, which is another area I feel an in between state in.

I apologize for the ramble that turned into.