You've all seen the commercial for Restless Leg Syndrome treatment...I've decided I have something quite similar. Restless Life Syndrome.
I sit here on my free nights and absolutely hate it. Sure my free time is rare and relaxing is good for you, but I just can't stand sitting at home with nothing to do. I want to be doing something productive, or with friends. I don't want to feel boring and useless any more. Sure we all think that life needs to slow down sometimes, but I'm honestly fine with the world moving full speed ahead. Perhaps this problem is due to my lack of patience. Or maybe it is just because not having plans makes me feel plain old pathetic. Whatever the reason, I either need to find something to do, or learn to chill and be alone. I don't know if I'm alone enough or too much, my boredom makes it seem as though I'm alone a lot. There is also the possibility that my inability to be alone is because I'm not used to it. Sometimes I even think writing in this blog is my cure to feeling pathetic, bored and alone. It makes me feel busy and as though I have something to do, although it really isn't important.
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