Jealously Alone.

So I was texting this guy, who's my friend but not close enough that we hang out or anything, just someone I talk to, and he was telling me about his crazy adventures over this spring break (this involves climbing a grocery store and staying up there most of the night). I couldn't help but think 'I am so ridiculously jealous of the fun he has with his friends'. Things have run dry with all of my friends. We hardly ever hang out; when we do it always seems to be a bit awkward. I don't know what happened to us all; we used to have such great times. There never was a dull moment. And now, that is exactly what describes us. Dull. I have some ideas as to why this has happened, things have happened and we've gone separate ways. I also wonder if this is God making things easier for me, it may sound crazy but let me explain. I've always dreaded leaving my friends and family in Pickerington. I a little over one year left until I leave for college and so far I can't stand the idea of it. Maybe because I'm not as close as I once was with my friends it'll be easier for me to leave them next year. I'm sure I'll still get emotional but maybe it will hurt less. I just wish I could have some more of those good ole fun times to fill up my last 2 summers and last year here. I'm so jealous of the friendships everyone seems to have. Nights over at houses every night, Tping, other enjoyable rendezvous. Maybe not climbing to the top of abandoned grocery stores, but I just want to make memories to take with me wherever I go. Maybe it’s time to make some last minute high school friends. We all know how great I am in that department...