Being Upset is Easy.

When you are wronged, your instantaneous reaction is to be upset. That is completely human, you have every right to be upset. Someone wrongs you, you should be upset with them for some time. Eventually, you must find it in yourself to be forgiving, forget it, and move on. Knowing when it is time to do so is another story completely but the time does come. Getting over it seems like the best thing, it means the problem is over. The process, though, is much harder than being upset. Being upset is just how you feel and want to feel and if feels good to just let it all out and complain. Getting over something and moving on takes hard, mature work. You have to think about what happened, confront the problem, fix broken friendships, and mend hurt feelings. Here comes that good ole' 'Easier isn't always better' lesson. It'd be nice to just be upset until you run out of steam, but that is what children do. By being upset and letting someone who wronged you upset you is only making it a problem.

"He who angers you, conquers you" - Elizabeth Kenney. The right thing to do, and what will benefit you in the end is the hard thing to do: Move on.

What Music Means to Me

It is mind boggling how much music can affect you. There are so many ways it will change your mood or what you think about. Certain songs bring up memories. If you remember something significant happening at the time a song was played that song brings up those memories. If there was an inside joke about a song or someone that song reminds you of you are filed with the same emotions those memories hold for you. I can listen to a song from an ensemble I was a part of and just hearing it reminds me of those I sat or marched near to. The things that were said, and they way I felt. I can imagine the relief, nerves, affection and enjoyment like I played the song yesterday. I can remember the exact way I felt at the time about everything.

Burried Feelings Overturned

The best way to completely change how you feel about someone is to burry and forget them and eventually they will go away on their own. When someone leaves and you aren't constantly reminded of those feelings the process is even easier. You don't see them, talk to them  or interact with them so you forget how you felt and move on with your life. All progress is lost, however, when the person returns. You miss the person regardless of burried feelings and you'd think you're happy to see them. At first you are happy to see them, but then the memories, thoughts, old feeling that you hid away and had forgotten come flooding back. It hurts, its like feeling all of the old feelings, good and bad, all at once. It is completely overwhelming. You miss them and want them back in your life and at the same time you want them to stay away and be gone forever. Overwhelmingly painful desires or easy but equally as painful seclusion..

Coming Soon

I have taken a leave from this blog and my writing. I want to write, I wish I could write and have the urge to write all the time. I just have no life at this point in the year and probably won't until after January. I apologize and I will write as soon as I find the free time. Stay tuned....