Burried Feelings Overturned

The best way to completely change how you feel about someone is to burry and forget them and eventually they will go away on their own. When someone leaves and you aren't constantly reminded of those feelings the process is even easier. You don't see them, talk to them  or interact with them so you forget how you felt and move on with your life. All progress is lost, however, when the person returns. You miss the person regardless of burried feelings and you'd think you're happy to see them. At first you are happy to see them, but then the memories, thoughts, old feeling that you hid away and had forgotten come flooding back. It hurts, its like feeling all of the old feelings, good and bad, all at once. It is completely overwhelming. You miss them and want them back in your life and at the same time you want them to stay away and be gone forever. Overwhelmingly painful desires or easy but equally as painful seclusion..