Every year for the last four years this night is sleepless and nerve racking. I can go back and read journal entries or blogs that I'd written on this very night in years past and its always the same feeling of fear, anxiety, nerves and tension. The night before state contest. I'm writing this on that very night, only for the last time as a Marching Tiger. Its sort of sad, but somewhat relieving. Well the relief won't come until tomorrow is over but still. It is still anxious but not as sad and nostalgic as I'd expected. Tonight was alos our last game in Tiger Stadium. Mr. Sewell had the band encircle the seniors and play Amazing Grace. Sure I teared up, but I always expected to bawl like a baby. I always thought that when marching band was over I'd be so upset and I'd be the one sobbing at ever last. Something about this season has proven otherwise. I am ready for it to end. I'm not happy that it is over, but I'm simply ok with it. Maybe it was the constant tension, anger, frustration, nerves and drama that has me feeling relieved that I will be done soon. Don't get me wrong, senior year has been amazing and so much fun. I've loved marching band so much. Maybe I'm timed just right and am simply ready to be over, because it is time to be over. I wish I knew, and I almost wish I was sad. Well I'm sure I'll be posting tomorrow. (I can look back to those journal and blog entries too).
States 2010. wow.
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