We began our new semester today and it seemed like the longest day of my life. I was completely bored and in a bad mood, yet not. I feel like my mind is filled to the brim with thought. I came home today with one of the biggest headaches I've ever had and I'm just ready to sleep. I highly doubt this is a coincidence. Thoughts definitely give you headaches just as much as physical causes. I am going to go to sleep soon, but I just had to unload some feelings first.
1. I'm sitting in my room shivering as I write this. I can't stand the idea of 0 degrees, let alone experiencing it. I'm listening to my favorite beach music band, Best Coast, and picturing driving around with my windows open with the sun beating down on my skin. I miss summer more than anything right now.
2. Sometimes I forget where I fit in, and it seems to happen to me after long weekends. I spend a lot of my long weekends hanging out with my family and sisters, I talk to different people than I normally do and I have a different agenda. I get back into my routine and find myself with inner conflict. I don't always know just which group I belong to.
3. How is it that some of the people who are the greatest to you can make you really feel like crap. Maybe they just have that leverage to create guilt, or you know just enough about them to be jealous of them. They're close to you so they're in your life enough and you know them well enough to provoke those feelings.
4. I shouldn't be writing now, I have a few things I should already be doing. Homework, practicing, organizing, reading, cleaning. Somehow I convince myself that writing takes precedence over other things. If I am able to reverse that idea I won't be writing as much, I'm sorry but it is for my betterment.
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