Hopeless

There is turmoil in our school district. It is such a sad and painful situation for teachers, administrators and those students who actually care. Loved programs are being cut and the teachers who have changed our lives are losing their jobs. I was speaking with a teacher who will most likely lose their job. They are considering going back to college and getting a degree in something else. They have the degree I plan to pursue. I look up to this teacher. I watched them go from college, to being part-time, getting their master's, and becoming an amazing educator and truly improving the music program at the junior high. Because of this I have considered them 'my hope'. What they are going through now is very similar to my future. I go to them with my college, music, career, and life questions. They are not only a teacher but like an older brother and friend to me. When they told me they may go back to college and pursue another career, I couldn't help but cry. Thinking about them giving up leaves me no hope. The very same thing could happen to me. There are very few jobs out there and I could have to go back and become a business woman. I have to wonder if there is even hope. Is it even worth my time? There is no other profession I think I could love. Sure, I have back up plans but it is not what I want. I can't stand to see these cuts happen to music teachers, it scares me. I don't want to be at that end of the rope, I cannot be ignorant to the fact that it is a real possibility.