Week 10: Your Dreams

I really am a dreamer, I constantly think, "What if.." and I make up little fantasies and ideas of what I wish was happening. Sometimes it makes my thoughts a little more exciting, other times, it hurts. I think about something happening, and in reality, it never will. I have a few basic dreams or goals for my life. The rest I try and leave up to God, of course with my personality I always have a problem with this. I am a perfectionist and a control freak. I have to be sure in the outcome before I do anything, and I feel like everything needs to be planned out. Well that is a discussion for another post but here are my current 'planned out' dreams.

1. Become a High School Band Director:
This dream motivates me going to college, majoring in music education, and focusing on my music. This dream brings worries, fears, excitement and hope. Hopefully it will define me, in a vocational sense as well as part of my personality.

2. To Get Married:
I am your average girly, high-school, love-struck, gal. What more could you expect, than me wanting to one day find Mr. Right, and become Mrs. Right? It is that happily-ever-after idea that inspires and haunts most girls. Other than wanting it to happen one day, I do not have my dream wedding, home, or guy planned out. I have ideas but I am too young for any of that and I am not THAT girly.

3. To be Successful:
I am a 'failure-a-phobe'. (I know that is not the correct term). This comes from being a perfectionist, but the idea of failure is my worst night mare. I want to be successful as possible. The definition of success isn't too intense for me though. I don't want to the be billionaire with a perfect job, 2.5 kids, and man. Being successful for me looks like being happy with your job, family and experiences as well as being the best follower of Jesus I possibly can. Always striving to improve myself, and working, loving and following to my true potential.

It is a weird thing to think so far into my future, it is nice knowing that it is so far away that the 'decisions' I make in my dreaming as to how things will be aren't set in stone. One can never know about tomorrow, and that is enough spontaneous and un-planned future for me!