List of Dreams

The other day in class (I know I should have been paying attention), I jotted down a list of things that I want. There were big things that are long term goals and simple things that would just be nice. It seems that some of them were inspired (thanks to Pinterest probably!) recently or are life goals that make me who I am. I figured I would post  a list of 10 of these things and explore the "whys" of each thing.

1. To be a band director.

2. To travel somewhere amazing.

3. To grow my hair out (and dye it something fun too!).

4. To go on an adventure.

5. To re-design my wardrobe.

6. To fall in love.

6.5. To get married.

7. To plan something big.

8. To partake in a new experience.

9. To laugh harder than I ever have.

10. To follow God with all my mind, body, soul, heart and life.

1. I want to be a band director. That is why I am studying music education. That is what drives me each and every day in my school work. I want to be a band director, because I love music and I love to teach, but most of all, I have found that a student's band director is someone who knows them more than most teachers and can be a personal and influential relationship for students, at a very critical point in their lives. Having the opportunity to help young musicians grow and be guidance in their lives is such a fulfilling idea to me. 

2.  This is a Pinterest inspired one for sure. Living in Ohio, there are a few exciting things to see, and I have visited other extraordinary sights such as New York City, Pasedena, Niagra Falls, beaches and caves. I really would love to travel to somewhere extremely foreign and different, where I could see something worth marveling at. Whether it be something God made, or blessed someone with the ability to make, I do not have a preference. I simply want to go somewhere once in a lifetime.

3. I have always had medium length or short hair. My hair is now the longest it has ever been, and I do not want to start that process over again. I really like the care-free look of long hair and seeing as I need to start looking professional in a few years, I would like to use this time to do more fun things with my hair. It'll be a nice change. I would also like to dye it in an ombre style. (Darker at roots and fades to a lighter color at tips). 

4. An adventure does not have to be some long grand thing. While that would be amazing, even an afternoon adventure would be nice. Life in a routine can get boring, and we all need to change it up sometimes with an adventure. Spontaneity is good for everyone! Whether it be getting lost during a car ride, a road trip, or a crazy night of fun; a little adventure is what I need!

5. Thank you Pinterest... There are times where I am not so sure of trends, but right now I LOVE the style that is in. With coral, pastels, and nude tones being the colors, and lots of flowing materials there are so many possibilities. I like the way I dress, but I want to spice it up some. I think it is time to try some new things. I do not even have to spend money to do so, I can simply try a new combination of what I already own. I also need to start thinking about dressing more professionally for jobs and student teaching; that leaves more new things to try and figure out.

6/6.5. I'm tackling these two together.. Okay, I am a girl, of course I want to fall in love. I watch sappy love story movies and of course I want to experience something like that. At the same time, I am a firm believer in REALITY and know that it will most likely, probably, 99.99999% NOT happen like it does in movies, but still. I do not believe I have ever been "in love" or truly loved anyone but friends and family. Now I put falling in love and marriage separately. Disclaimer: I do not believe you can have one without the other. You cannot marry someone you do not love. The reason they are separate on my list, I think you can experience love for someone and end up not marrying them, because even then you are growing as a relational person and that can lead you to and prepare you for the person God has set for you to marry. I do want to get married, while I am not the overly "lovey-dovey" type, that is a part of my dream future. I pray for the man God has for me all the time. But as for this, I am extremely patient. It is NOT my time.

7. I love to plan and organize. I get a thrill from the stress of pulling everything together by a deadline. I love seeing all the work I put into something end in something great. I love to plan get togethers, parties, and other events. I would love to do that again sometime soon.

8. I guess this is sort of cheating, a new experience really is an adventure. I just want to try something new, whether it be a hobby, activity, group, or life milestone. No one suggest sky diving, I refuse to try that one. (I guess I should not be picky....).

9. Before you assume I am depressed and do not laugh or even smile anymore, let me say, you are wrong. I just made the observation that I have not laughed as often as I used to or as hard as I used to. I can remember in high school laughing till I cried on nearly a daily basis. I miss that and I think laughing and having a good time is important to one's happiness!

10. This is the one goal on this list, or any list ever that I refuse to go without. This is the one goal and desire that I shape my life around and wish to truly motivate every decision and action with. While this is not the case 100% of the time, I hope to make it that way. I am called to make it that way. My God is the greatest thing in my life and the greatest thing that ever will be. He is the reason I am able to do anything to better my life, and only He can say whether 1-9 on the list are going to happen. And that is really the thing that this post is all about. I want for all these things to be a part of my life, but I do not have any say if these are in the plan He has for me. Only God knows. One thing I can do to make that "Ok" is to strengthen my faith and find comfort in that I do not need to worry about whether an adventure is in His plan or not, because my God has my best interest at heart.

"Thank you God for taking care of me and my life. I need your powerful strength to trust in you plan for me, and comfort in you to keep worry away. You are the one who has made it possible for me to dream for these things, You are the one who has to power to bless me with them, or take them away. I wish to endure and grow in what you have in store. Amen."