I believe it is a good thing to think about the past. You learn from the past to help you understand the present. You learn from mistakes and success. The past also hold memories both good and bad. Dwelling on the past sounds like a good thing right? Wrong.
When I have lots of free time where I'm just relaxing, my mind often wanders all over the place. Often times it will travel back, to memories and feelings of long ago. There are situations I remember where the effects still last today, and feelings though not as terrible I still see in others now. Somehow a lot of the same feelings come back. I found myself extremely angry last night as I thought about certain things and people who have upset me so much. Things are better nowadays between thee people but I still see a little bit of what used to be in them, so I became angry. I had to tell myself that that was weeks ago, or months ago, or in some case at least a year ago. Maybe some of these things I still feel went unjustly, and I have no closure? Something from months ago shouldn't still anger me. I really should just move on and not think about it anymore. Whatever happened to turning bad situations into something "we'll all laugh about someday"? Ha, I noticed I even wrote a blog about moving on after being wronged. So yeah, months later it is the hard thing to do, but by not doing it, it is negatively affecting me. Hm. Lesson learned even this much later.
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