I. Give. Up.
My academic life is pretty good. My grades are going up. As a musician, I am improving and I have many musical experiences ahead of me. Its exciting stuff. Well, that's my cup half full view...
Now lets take a look at how I really feel. Socially, my life isn't so great right now. I have friends that I have a great time with in school, or at band. Outside of school? Nope. My friends each have their groups whether its through a school group or through weekend social events, they've got their groups. I sometimes think that I'm the boring kill joy no one wants to invite. That's probably blowing things out of proportion, but I just needed to get some of those feelings out. I also think sometimes I only find myself interested in someone because they express interest in me. As soon as they seem to lose interest I give up on pursuing that person. (sounds conceited...oh great..)
So we've looked at the positive and the negative, lets do some learning. I think that we all go through up and down phases in each area of our lives and that gives us a time to truly focus on the other aspects of our life. I think this could definitely be a time for me to forget about climbing the socialite ladder and focus on my auditions, talent, grades and future. Sure I can be a negative Nancy at times but I'll find the lesson in it eventually.
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